You Did All the Right Things. So Why Aren't You Free?
Originally shared on The House of Ta podcast
You've done therapy, set boundaries, practiced self-care... so why do you still feel like you're waiting for permission to be yourself?
If you're reading this, there's a good chance you're that woman who's done "the work." You've journaled until your hand cramped. Prayed until your voice went hoarse. Cut people off who didn't deserve access to you. Got back in touch with your body through yoga, breathwork, or whatever felt right.
You even tried to rest... but it felt unsafe, didn't it?
You've mastered the language of healing, but your nervous system still doesn't feel like home.
So now what?
The Moment Everything I Built Came Crashing Down
Let me tell you a story that changed everything for me.
There was a moment in my life when my business was booming. I'm talking five-figure launches, clients on waitlists, inbox full of praise. I followed the damn blueprint... the niche, the strategy, the content pillars, the consistency, the personal brand, all of it. I did everything "right."
And then? It all crashed. Practically overnight.
Clients vanished. Sales dried up. I went from overflow to broke without any warning.
I remember sitting there thinking, What the hell just happened? How can I be this smart, this capable, this aligned... and still be broke? It shook something deep in me.
Because I wasn't just grieving the money. I was grieving the lie. The one that says, "If you just do everything the right way, you'll be safe."
That was the moment I realized: I wasn't building freedom. I was performing it.
I wasn't running a business from my truth... I was running it from my trauma, dressed up in strategy.
And that's when it hit me: I did everything right, and I still wasn't free.
You're Living in the In-Between
Maybe you recognize this feeling. You're in this strange middle place. Not in crisis, but not fully alive either. You're awake... but still waiting for permission to be yourself.
And that's where most people get stuck. Because no one talks about this in-between.
This isn't depression. It's not anxiety. It's what I call high-functioning spiritual awakening... the afterburn of becoming someone new in a world that still wants the old you.
The Real Reason You Keep Handing Your Energy Away
Let's talk about what's really happening here.
You know your energy is sacred. You've heard it a thousand times... protect your peace, use your discernment, blah blah blah.
But how do you protect something you were never taught to value?
Here's the truth most people won't say: You were raised to be chosen, not sovereign.
You were raised to be liked, not rooted. To be accepted, not honest. To be available, not at home in yourself.
So now, even with all the knowledge you have, you still:
Say yes when your body says no
Swallow your truth to "keep the vibe good"
Abandon your needs because someone else's disappointment feels like danger
That's not your fault. It's conditioning. And it's brilliantly disguised as being a good partner, good mom, good woman, good friend.
But the cost? Is your actual life force.
Why Traditional Healing Only Gets You Halfway
You don't need another plan. You don't need more doing.
You need a return... to the version of you who was never broken, just buried under the performance.
Traditional healing teaches you to manage your trauma. But what happens when you're ready to stop managing and start embodying your truth?
That's exactly why I created The House of Tah™.
What Alignment Actually Looks Like
Let me be clear... alignment isn't about having perfect routines or reading your aura like a horoscope.
Alignment is when your body stops bracing.
It's when you say:
"I'm not available for this anymore."
"I don't owe you my explanation."
"I trust my no as much as my yes."
It's not about being soft all the time. It's about being honest... even when your voice shakes.
And yes, that's scary.
But when you do it in a space where your whole self... the messy, the scared, the exhausted, the holy... is allowed?
That's not scary anymore. That's medicine.
The Permission You've Been Waiting For
If you've been waiting for a sign, this is it.
You don't have to keep reading books hoping they'll fix a feeling. You don't have to keep rearranging your life to be more "digestible." You don't have to keep asking if you're too much, too sensitive, too loud, too tired.
You're not too much. You're just done with not enough.
The House of Tah™ is a 6-week live experience for Projectors, Generators, and Manifesting Generators who are done fixing and ready for returning. The doors are open right now, but I'm only accepting 10 women for this round.
This is where your nervous system finally gets to heal. Where you stop performing your worthiness and start embodying it.
This is where the training ends... and your truth begins.
